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Lala Kent is still haunted by the final moments of Vanderpump Rules season 11.
As she looked back on her regrets, recalling feelings of “anger” and “anxiety,” Lala, 35, said that she put herself at risk of a relapse as she discussed her alleged return to The Valley, reacted to fans who don’t want her and Scheana Shay, 40, on the show, and explained what caused her to act out against her castmates, including Ariana Madix, 40.
“It still weighs heavy on me. I was dealing with a lot of foreign emotions at that time. I wish I could’ve pinpointed how I was feeling in real time because then I feel like I could’ve had more productive conversations with people. And instead I just tried to push everything away, and it was an explosion,” Lala recalled during a September 26 interview with Entertainment Tonight.
As fans will recall, Lala slammed Ariana for refusing to film with her ex-boyfriend, Tom Sandoval, 43, after his affair with Rachel “Raquel” Leviss, 30, during the cast’s finale dinner.
Then, afterwards, Lala experienced emotions she couldn’t properly work through.
“In sobriety, because I dealt with these feelings before, well, since we filmed that finale and the reunion, with my sponsor, where I was like, ‘I cannot shake these feelings of anger, anxiety, depression, over everything that happened.’ And she said, ‘We have to only own our part. We can’t control other people. And if we don’t do it, you do have a relapse on the horizon,’” Lala shared.
“When she said that to me, it was like taking a bullet. And I had to do a lot of work on just owning my part,” she continued. “It didn’t matter what the other people decided to say or do or not do. What was my part in all of this, and how do I make it so that I can forgive myself?”
Looking back on the finale dinner, Lala said she went into the taping with the mindset of falling back and enjoying her night. However, that wasn’t how things played out.
“I wish I would’ve shut the f*ck up, and nothing to do with the way the audience received it, everything to do with me beating myself up after that,” she explained. “I made someone feel that they weren’t protected … if someone did that to me, I would’ve lost my mind on them. So why did I feel like I could do that to somebody?”
While Lala has gone through plenty of hardships on reality television, she is reportedly set to appear on The Valley season three, which is currently in production.
“I love to be an emotional masochist. There’s just something about really TV that I live for and I find that Bravo has conquered the art,” she shared of her decision to get back on the small screen. “Bravo has done a phenomenal job, and it’s such an art that I just, when I movie it, I want to crawl into the TV.”
Although Lala has already been spotted filming with The Valley cast, that isn’t to say that she doesn’t have some concerns.
“My regret from my final episode of Vanderpump Rules, the guilt and shame didn’t come from the audience. That came from we were a group of actually very good friends … when I think about going into the atmosphere again, the audience does scare me,” she admitted.
Already, Lala has been faced with fans saying they don’t want her or Scheana to appear.
To them, Lala said, “You should turn your TV off because it’s not gonna happen, and the more you say my name, you’re saying, ‘I don’t want you,’ yet you’re talking about me, so the only thing people are gonna zone in on who matter is like, ‘Oh they’re saying her name. Someone put a lens in her face.’”
Also during the interview, Lala revealed whether she was in a better place since working on herself after Pump Rules concluded.
“I think it’s still work that I’m gonna have to do because it shifted everyting for me. It altered friendships; it altered just a very happy place for me. I never experienced that before. It was humbling but it also felt like karma,” she shared. “I was like, ‘I want hard on two people during the whole scandal. I’m today seeing what that feels like.’ So how can I be upset? You have to just make amends and try your best to move on.”
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