Rupert Everett is feeling “emptiness” following the death of his mother.
Rupert Everett has been left devastated by his mother’s death
The 66-year-old actor moved in with his mom Sara Maclean Everett several years ago so he could be around to help her in her later years and he’s been left devastated following her recent death but he admits it was a “privilege” to be by her side when she passed away.
He told The Telegraph newspaper: “What I’m feeling immediately is … emptiness. Because there’s a vibration there when your mother is alive, which is the vibration of blinkered, unconditional admiration …
“It’s like the sound of a motorboat in the distance, you know? Always whirring away, always there – and then suddenly it’s not. And that vibration? No amount of AI or machinery is ever going to be able to recreate it, because it’s the umbilical affection that a mother has for her child.”
He went on to talk about his loss, adding: “She was 91 and she was ready to go … [She had] “wonderful” [carers]. But she was about to become unmanageable in the house, and I’d always promised her that I wouldn’t either put her in a home or let her die in hospital. Still …
“Palliative care is not for sissies. But, you know, there’s actually something rather beautiful about watching someone waning and disappearing, so on the whole my mother’s death was very nice.
“My older brother [Simon] wasn’t there but I was, and it’s a great privilege, really, to be around your parents when they die.”
During the interview, Rupert revealed he has been reading his mom’s diaries that he found after she died and it made him feel bad about the times he didn’t to go home to see her after moving out.
He said: “I went through my mum’s diaries the other day, and there were all these Christmases where I hadn’t gone to see her … Because the truth is that, after the age of 20, I never really wanted to go home ever again … It was just that I found their [my parents] way of life incredibly depressing. Of course, their life is immediately my life: that traditional country life of walking dogs and sitting in the drizzle. And I like it very much.”
However, Rupert had a candid chat with her during her final days to apologise.
He said: “I did do a big: ‘Sorry for all the horrible things I’ve done’ … Every week, every week, wherever I was, she would say in this casual voice: ‘Are you coming?’ And I would say: ‘Oh, I can’t’. She always wanted me to be there and I couldn’t think of anything worse.”
As well as acting, Rupert has also been working on a number of books in recent years and he shared that he plans to write about his mother in the future.
He told the publication: “At some point. I do think I will write about my mother.”
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